HappyBirthday!!

A Letter To Naia

My sweet little Naia,

Tomorrow you're 1, one month old.

We've spent 4 weeks together, the best 4 weeks of my life. 

I can't believe how fast time has gone...

I can't believe how much you've changed.

I still can't believe I'm a mommy, your mommy. 

I'm so blessed.

I sit here thinking about August 11th. How daddy and I were getting a pedicure, with mommy questioning if those pains she felt were labor pains...and yes they were. I love that we didn't need induction... and I know it was meant to be that you've chosen the 11th. I know your Uncle Jesse is smiling down on us. 

I remember them placing you on my chest, yet I was still out of breath, unable to sink in the fact that my baby was here. As they took you away, I heard you cry, your first cry...I waited for them to check you, to bring you back to me. I heard a man telling you to open your eyes -- and baby, you didn't open your eyes until you were back in my arms, listening to my voice... my heart sank... you were finally here.

I never thought I could love someone more than your daddy, and then there was you. 

The ultimate gift of love. 

I still remember when we found out about you.

Hearing your little heartbeat, seeing a tiny you. 

Thank you for a month of joy.

I love every dirty diaper...it's proof that I'm keeping you healthy.

I love every little smile, giggle, yawn. 

Every little cry, I promise to continue to keep those eyes dry.

I love it when you hold my finger.

I love when you lean your little head upon my shoulder.

You may not talk yet, but I love our story time.

You are the greatest listener babe. 

I love you so much baby girl.

And I just love you more and more and more.

Happy 1 Month Baby Girl. 

Thank you for this love. 

So blessed to have you.

Beautifully Blessed

I may not be able to recognize a lie, only because I trust I wouldn't be lied to. 

I was hurt & confused. A lot of memories resurfaced...

My husband always warns me to keep my guard up..

I trust easily. I give too quickly. 

I truly believed I proved him wrong this time. 

But once again...stupidity got the best of me.

But now, I have no time to cry..

No energy for games,

No desire to try anymore.

I could wish all I want,

but really -- I couldn't wish for anything more.

I can't be hurt when I think about my life.

I'd never imagined being so blessed.

I have found a man, who no matter what negatives come our way, never gives up on us.

Someone who continues to sacrifice himself for our little family.  

A man who's happiness revolves around keeping me happy.

I can't change him. That's how he is...

All I can be is truly thankful for him, his love.

I love this man with all I am.

Then there's our beautiful baby girl.

So blessed to have such a good baby!

She's mellow. She's quiet.

She can fall asleep on her own.

She may not nap long during the day, 

but she'll nap 2-3hrs throughout the night.

 She loves a good story,

& her momma's imperfect singing. 

Love my little Naia.

Of course I'll cry,

get angry,

breakdown..

but with constant reminders of my wonderful life..

negativity stands no chance.

Have a blessed day.

XO -,Savvy

A Miss Mack Tag

As baby's nap is winding down, (she's squeaking every now and then)
I'm going to hope I can finish this before the loud, hunger cries begin!

1. What's something that you have always wanted and got?

I've always been a simple girl. Never one with BIG dreams or goals.. just one always hoping to find love & happiness. The little girl stuck believing fairytales are real... And today, I can honestly say they are. I'm living my very own fairytale, with my prince charming, and babylove, Naia. I believe that love conquers all... and I'm so blessed to have been able to fall in love with a great man, and experience the greatest love of all, with a baby. 

 

2. What is your favorite movie?

Back to fairytales - I love "Beauty And The Beast" 

I've watched it a million times as a child, but never really appreciated the story line until I was much older. 

Beauty comes from within <3

 

3. What is your favorite book?

So honestly, I haven't really read an entire book until Twilight. Finishing the entire SAGA in less than a week. Post Twilight, I may have read 5 more books. Out of those 9, I can't really say any were my favorite. So, I will say, my favorite book has to be little scrapbooks I have created. Memories are forever, sometimes I forget about the good time. I love having these little reminders, those good moments preserved forever.

 

4. What is your favorite season?

Spring. I love the pastels, florals, baby animals. Yes, I'm THAT girly. Spring is a happy season. Well, all are, but when I think of Spring, I can't find a negative. Unless you have bad allergies, :( 

5. Are you a Scentsy or Yankee candle fan?

I'm not much of a candle girl. I get headaches.

 

6. What is your favorite state/country that you have lived in?

I've only lived in Hawaii. But I've traveled to California, Florida, and been to many countries in Europe.

Europe is beautiful. So quaint. I loved the Netherlands.

 

7. If you had front row seats to any event, what would you choose?

Because I have a mommy-brain and can't think up many things... I'll say, I'd love to have been front row, in the making of the Cool Waters Commercial, starring Paul Walker. I don't know where he has been, but he's aging beautifully. I may have to watch Fast & Furious now. 

 

8. What is your favorite exercise?

Something I have NOT done in forever.. gosh. 

I enjoy a good zumba and walks around the park. Exercise has to be FUN or I will not do it. 

I've tried those TURBO kick classes, but I don't like feeling the pain. Haha. 

 

9. What is your favorite drink?

ICE COLD WATER.

I have multiple water bottles in the freezer. 

 

10. What is something that you have always wanted but never gotten?

Hmmm... I'm really practical. So there are many things I want to buy that I don't, for that reason alone. 

But lets see.. I can give you an "everything for a reason" example.

 

When finding out I was pregnant, I wanted so bad to be in Okinawa with my husband, having the baby there. There were some people in my life, who I found poisonous... and keeping my baby away from them was the only thing on my mind. Here I am today, thankful that I had my baby at home, because honestly, I would be going BANANAS without my mother's help. I couldn't imagine being somewhere so far away from her, with a child... No offense to my husband, but there are some things only women can feel and understand. And as a mother and a woman, I am so thankful for my own. 

 

11. What is your favorite recipe?

I have yet to master the art of cooking. I know I will have to one day -- thankfully baby can survive on boob for now. Wow I just said that.... Haha!
But I love a nice simple dish.. because I'm lazy. None in particular.

Thank you Mack for this tag! (:
Baby is still passed out!

XO - Sav

 

Time flies. It truly does.

40 days ago, my husband flew back to Hawaii. 

20 days ago, our daughter was born.

Tomorrow, he flies back to Okinawa.

 Tonight we say goodbye... err scratch that, 

tonight we say, "see you soon"

 

We don't know when we three will be together again.

Do Naia and I wait in Hilo until he gets his next accompanied orders? 

Or do we fly to Okinawa, to be with him until we get those orders?

If it were just me, I'd be in Okinawa in a heartbeat.

But now with a little one, there's just so many things to think about....so much to consider.

 

Of course I want our family to be together, sooner than later. 

I'm just torn.

Okinawa is a 9hr flight. 

With a mandatory customs checkpoint in Japan. 

I'd definitely need someone to help me get there. 

But who would accompany us? 

Do I bring luggage? Or mail my things?

Will she be okay with just her first shot?

Will she be okay for the multiple plane rides?

Do I leave my wonderful doctor here, to have her check-ups all at the on-base hospital? 

Call this my postpartum thinking, but these are just a few of the things I think about.

The house we'd be staying in has a cat and a dog. Who we'd have to take care of while our friends are away. There's just too many things this crazy mind of mine thinks up. 

And then there's the heartbreak of it all.

Leaving my momma.

I really don't know how I would be able to have survived these first few weeks of motherhood without her. She's kept me company until my husband came back from work/gym.

She feeds me & does household cleaning that she considers "Nothing" -- but honestly, it helps me so much. 

The night I mentioned Okinawa to my momma, she was holding Naia. 

The minute I told her about Okinawa, Naia began to cry.

The minute my baby's crying began, I found myself in tears as well.

But these are just thoughts and options for now.

Whatever is meant to be, will be. 

I truly believe that.

6 more hours with us three together. 

I sit here at my laptop with my two babies sleeping.

I am blessed.

I am so in love with my family. 

XO - Savannah