Beautifully Blessed

I may not be able to recognize a lie, only because I trust I wouldn't be lied to. 

I was hurt & confused. A lot of memories resurfaced...

My husband always warns me to keep my guard up..

I trust easily. I give too quickly. 

I truly believed I proved him wrong this time. 

But once again...stupidity got the best of me.

But now, I have no time to cry..

No energy for games,

No desire to try anymore.

I could wish all I want,

but really -- I couldn't wish for anything more.

I can't be hurt when I think about my life.

I'd never imagined being so blessed.

I have found a man, who no matter what negatives come our way, never gives up on us.

Someone who continues to sacrifice himself for our little family.  

A man who's happiness revolves around keeping me happy.

I can't change him. That's how he is...

All I can be is truly thankful for him, his love.

I love this man with all I am.

Then there's our beautiful baby girl.

So blessed to have such a good baby!

She's mellow. She's quiet.

She can fall asleep on her own.

She may not nap long during the day, 

but she'll nap 2-3hrs throughout the night.

 She loves a good story,

& her momma's imperfect singing. 

Love my little Naia.

Of course I'll cry,

get angry,

breakdown..

but with constant reminders of my wonderful life..

negativity stands no chance.

Have a blessed day.

XO -,Savvy

A Miss Mack Tag

As baby's nap is winding down, (she's squeaking every now and then)
I'm going to hope I can finish this before the loud, hunger cries begin!

1. What's something that you have always wanted and got?

I've always been a simple girl. Never one with BIG dreams or goals.. just one always hoping to find love & happiness. The little girl stuck believing fairytales are real... And today, I can honestly say they are. I'm living my very own fairytale, with my prince charming, and babylove, Naia. I believe that love conquers all... and I'm so blessed to have been able to fall in love with a great man, and experience the greatest love of all, with a baby. 

 

2. What is your favorite movie?

Back to fairytales - I love "Beauty And The Beast" 

I've watched it a million times as a child, but never really appreciated the story line until I was much older. 

Beauty comes from within <3

 

3. What is your favorite book?

So honestly, I haven't really read an entire book until Twilight. Finishing the entire SAGA in less than a week. Post Twilight, I may have read 5 more books. Out of those 9, I can't really say any were my favorite. So, I will say, my favorite book has to be little scrapbooks I have created. Memories are forever, sometimes I forget about the good time. I love having these little reminders, those good moments preserved forever.

 

4. What is your favorite season?

Spring. I love the pastels, florals, baby animals. Yes, I'm THAT girly. Spring is a happy season. Well, all are, but when I think of Spring, I can't find a negative. Unless you have bad allergies, :( 

5. Are you a Scentsy or Yankee candle fan?

I'm not much of a candle girl. I get headaches.

 

6. What is your favorite state/country that you have lived in?

I've only lived in Hawaii. But I've traveled to California, Florida, and been to many countries in Europe.

Europe is beautiful. So quaint. I loved the Netherlands.

 

7. If you had front row seats to any event, what would you choose?

Because I have a mommy-brain and can't think up many things... I'll say, I'd love to have been front row, in the making of the Cool Waters Commercial, starring Paul Walker. I don't know where he has been, but he's aging beautifully. I may have to watch Fast & Furious now. 

 

8. What is your favorite exercise?

Something I have NOT done in forever.. gosh. 

I enjoy a good zumba and walks around the park. Exercise has to be FUN or I will not do it. 

I've tried those TURBO kick classes, but I don't like feeling the pain. Haha. 

 

9. What is your favorite drink?

ICE COLD WATER.

I have multiple water bottles in the freezer. 

 

10. What is something that you have always wanted but never gotten?

Hmmm... I'm really practical. So there are many things I want to buy that I don't, for that reason alone. 

But lets see.. I can give you an "everything for a reason" example.

 

When finding out I was pregnant, I wanted so bad to be in Okinawa with my husband, having the baby there. There were some people in my life, who I found poisonous... and keeping my baby away from them was the only thing on my mind. Here I am today, thankful that I had my baby at home, because honestly, I would be going BANANAS without my mother's help. I couldn't imagine being somewhere so far away from her, with a child... No offense to my husband, but there are some things only women can feel and understand. And as a mother and a woman, I am so thankful for my own. 

 

11. What is your favorite recipe?

I have yet to master the art of cooking. I know I will have to one day -- thankfully baby can survive on boob for now. Wow I just said that.... Haha!
But I love a nice simple dish.. because I'm lazy. None in particular.

Thank you Mack for this tag! (:
Baby is still passed out!

XO - Sav

 

Time flies. It truly does.

40 days ago, my husband flew back to Hawaii. 

20 days ago, our daughter was born.

Tomorrow, he flies back to Okinawa.

 Tonight we say goodbye... err scratch that, 

tonight we say, "see you soon"

 

We don't know when we three will be together again.

Do Naia and I wait in Hilo until he gets his next accompanied orders? 

Or do we fly to Okinawa, to be with him until we get those orders?

If it were just me, I'd be in Okinawa in a heartbeat.

But now with a little one, there's just so many things to think about....so much to consider.

 

Of course I want our family to be together, sooner than later. 

I'm just torn.

Okinawa is a 9hr flight. 

With a mandatory customs checkpoint in Japan. 

I'd definitely need someone to help me get there. 

But who would accompany us? 

Do I bring luggage? Or mail my things?

Will she be okay with just her first shot?

Will she be okay for the multiple plane rides?

Do I leave my wonderful doctor here, to have her check-ups all at the on-base hospital? 

Call this my postpartum thinking, but these are just a few of the things I think about.

The house we'd be staying in has a cat and a dog. Who we'd have to take care of while our friends are away. There's just too many things this crazy mind of mine thinks up. 

And then there's the heartbreak of it all.

Leaving my momma.

I really don't know how I would be able to have survived these first few weeks of motherhood without her. She's kept me company until my husband came back from work/gym.

She feeds me & does household cleaning that she considers "Nothing" -- but honestly, it helps me so much. 

The night I mentioned Okinawa to my momma, she was holding Naia. 

The minute I told her about Okinawa, Naia began to cry.

The minute my baby's crying began, I found myself in tears as well.

But these are just thoughts and options for now.

Whatever is meant to be, will be. 

I truly believe that.

6 more hours with us three together. 

I sit here at my laptop with my two babies sleeping.

I am blessed.

I am so in love with my family. 

XO - Savannah

Seven Days Gone Too Quick.

 

I can't believe it's been a WEEK.

A week since I've met this beautiful baby girl.

A week since I've fallen in the deepest love I've ever known.

 

 

A week of learning why she cries.

When she's hungry.

When she's dirty.

When she just wants to be cuddled.

 

 

A week of realizing, she truly is a water baby.

The year of the water dragon.

Naia - Water Nymph.

With Mommy and Daddy both being water signs.

She really doesn't mind a little bath <3

 

 

A week of studying her features.

How she has daddy's toes.

Mommy's hands.

Knowing as each new day passes, she's already growing up too fast.

 

 A week of sharing stories.

I love how she recognizes my voice,

how it can stop her mid-cry.

She's a great listener. 

 

 

I love my baby girl. 

Some complain about lack of sleep... I couldn't. 

I can't see how.

She needs me. She's helpless. 

I need her. 

 

 

Happy 7 Days My Baby Naia <3 <3 <3

I love being a mommy.

The Day My Life Began...

Saturday, August 11, 2012 was soon to be known as the best day of my life thus far. 

It was a day I felt heartbreak, only to be blessed with the greatest love I have ever known. 

I remember waking up and thinking about Jesse. All the moments we've shared, all the smiles he's given me..... even remembering the last time that I've seen him, and the last things we've talked about...

Saturday morning, I found myself crying. Truly missing him, and then I saw this. 

 

It's been a while since I've seen a rainbow, let alone a nice glimpse of morning rays -- but I knew it was him, telling me not to cry... for he has never given me anything less than an unbreakable friendship.

I love you Jesse. I can never thank you enough <3

After letting go of my sorrows, I found myself enjoying the day. Having a nice lunch with my mom. It has been around 4 days since I've last seen her (Strep Throat).

 

OKAY ---- so I typed out my whole labor experience, only to find it deleted. Perhaps it was a sign to not go into full detail, with negativity and such. But here we go again! (:

My husband took me to get a pedi, to ensure I would have pretty toes for delivery. We were scheduled to be induced Monday, August 13, 2012, if baby didn't come on her own. Aug 13 is actually the day that Richie had asked me to be his girlfriend, so we were happy to deliver then. 9 days being overdue was long enough. I honestly didn't think I'd go into labor that Saturday. 

Like most mornings, I'd wake up with back pain, sore hips, but nothing ever unbearable. It was until we were sitting there in our massage chairs, that I found myself FROWNING in pain. Now, if I'm not smiling, something is seriously wrong. I started timing the pain, calculating that they were approximately 5 minutes apart. I called my mom, stating that I think I was going into labor. Called the doctor, who of course wasn't in town that weekend. :( --- the office then advised me to get to the ER asap --  and that's just what we did --- after the pedis of course. Ha!

I called a close friend, asking her GF if I was having contractions. She too told me to get the hospital! 

We went home, packed our bags, and headed up. 

I remember feeling nervous, excited, and in disbelief that the day has finally come! I'm going to meet my mini!!! Laying in bed, the pain was still bearable, I was 4cm dilated, and pretty comfortable until the doctor came around and broke my water. That's when the contractions came rolling in. I can't describe the pain, I just know, that I NEVER would have imagined that I'd be one of those women moaning in pain. I always found that 'dramatic' -- but my gosh...I curled up as tight as I could, seriously moaning with each contraction. 

Within a few minutes, doctor advised that I was ready to push. Being 5cm, he cut me more. Baby's heart was dropping, and we needed to get her out right away. I remember not being able to breathe, I remember feeling overwhelmed. I remember the doctor scolding me,  "Enough noise. Just push. Next time don't wait so long to have a baby. She's too big for you. Next time at least 39 weeks okay? We gotta get her out. If you don't start pushing harder, we're gonna need an emergency c-section so start pushing.." I remember the nurses updating us on baby's heart. I remember getting angry with the doctor, and pushing with all I had.

And then I opened my eyes, and having a baby on my chest. With no time to react, she was taken from me. To clean up, check-up, do whatever they do with babies.

I remember hearing her first cry. Crying myself. She cried until they brought her back to me.... I held her in my arms, said "Hi Naia" -- she opened her eyes, stopped crying, and stared at me. She knew my voice. She knows her momma. 

 I could finally breathe, for a minute.

Doctor now had to stitch me up -- & I still believe that portion was the worst pain of the whole procedure. He believed I received an epidural -- so he sewed me up without any numbing. But really, if it weren't for this on-call doctor, I don't think I would have felt strong enough to keep pushing. My regular doctor is a big sweetheart.. So it's another case of "everything happens for a reason" -- & for that reason, we are blessed with this beautiful baby girl.

August 11, 2012 @ 20:40

Naia Kealohaonalani Kahanakapu Maiko Salinas 

6lbs 5oz. 20 inches long. 

I still can't believe she's finally here...

I can't believe that together, my husband and I have created such a precious little girl. 

She is such a blessing. I am so in love. 

For 41weeks, I've been in pure bliss. Enjoying every kick & ache, watching my belly grow, just feeling the most beautiful I have ever felt before. She's taught me the power of patience, and what it is to care for others, never thinking twice about "me" -- With her here, I continue living with these traits. 

She's a good baby, a great listener, and I just pray I can do enough to keep her happy and healthy.

She's surrounded by so much love, and I want her to constantly feel that. 

I love you Naia baby, unconditionally.