The Adventures Of SMOS

 

Time flies. It truly does.

40 days ago, my husband flew back to Hawaii. 

20 days ago, our daughter was born.

Tomorrow, he flies back to Okinawa.

 Tonight we say goodbye... err scratch that, 

tonight we say, "see you soon"

 

We don't know when we three will be together again.

Do Naia and I wait in Hilo until he gets his next accompanied orders? 

Or do we fly to Okinawa, to be with him until we get those orders?

If it were just me, I'd be in Okinawa in a heartbeat.

But now with a little one, there's just so many things to think about....so much to consider.

 

Of course I want our family to be together, sooner than later. 

I'm just torn.

Okinawa is a 9hr flight. 

With a mandatory customs checkpoint in Japan. 

I'd definitely need someone to help me get there. 

But who would accompany us? 

Do I bring luggage? Or mail my things?

Will she be okay with just her first shot?

Will she be okay for the multiple plane rides?

Do I leave my wonderful doctor here, to have her check-ups all at the on-base hospital? 

Call this my postpartum thinking, but these are just a few of the things I think about.

The house we'd be staying in has a cat and a dog. Who we'd have to take care of while our friends are away. There's just too many things this crazy mind of mine thinks up. 

And then there's the heartbreak of it all.

Leaving my momma.

I really don't know how I would be able to have survived these first few weeks of motherhood without her. She's kept me company until my husband came back from work/gym.

She feeds me & does household cleaning that she considers "Nothing" -- but honestly, it helps me so much. 

The night I mentioned Okinawa to my momma, she was holding Naia. 

The minute I told her about Okinawa, Naia began to cry.

The minute my baby's crying began, I found myself in tears as well.

But these are just thoughts and options for now.

Whatever is meant to be, will be. 

I truly believe that.

6 more hours with us three together. 

I sit here at my laptop with my two babies sleeping.

I am blessed.

I am so in love with my family. 

XO - Savannah