Beautifully Blessed

I may not be able to recognize a lie, only because I trust I wouldn't be lied to. 

I was hurt & confused. A lot of memories resurfaced...

My husband always warns me to keep my guard up..

I trust easily. I give too quickly. 

I truly believed I proved him wrong this time. 

But once again...stupidity got the best of me.

But now, I have no time to cry..

No energy for games,

No desire to try anymore.

I could wish all I want,

but really -- I couldn't wish for anything more.

I can't be hurt when I think about my life.

I'd never imagined being so blessed.

I have found a man, who no matter what negatives come our way, never gives up on us.

Someone who continues to sacrifice himself for our little family.  

A man who's happiness revolves around keeping me happy.

I can't change him. That's how he is...

All I can be is truly thankful for him, his love.

I love this man with all I am.

Then there's our beautiful baby girl.

So blessed to have such a good baby!

She's mellow. She's quiet.

She can fall asleep on her own.

She may not nap long during the day, 

but she'll nap 2-3hrs throughout the night.

 She loves a good story,

& her momma's imperfect singing. 

Love my little Naia.

Of course I'll cry,

get angry,

breakdown..

but with constant reminders of my wonderful life..

negativity stands no chance.

Have a blessed day.

XO -,Savvy

Hyperventilating(: :Mommyhood is so close!

I've just come home from the doctor. Actually had a very busy day.. but all I can think about right now is my doctor's appointment. 

Baby's heartbeat is good. (: Measurements are good. 

But one thing, my doctor has NO IDEA what this clicking sound is that's coming out of my belly. 

Any mommy's experienced that? Every once in a while, I hear a clicking sound, resembles a bone cracking.... tried to google and seriously, no one knows what it is! Sadly, my doctor has never heard of it either. I promise I'm not crazy. I just hope baby's okay! She keeps wiggling after I hear that cracking, so I'm sure she's fine. 

But here's the exciting news. I've been informed that starting July 9th, after my ultrasound (SO HAPPY TO GET TO SEE BABY AGAIN!) but I'll be visiting the doctor twice a week from here on out. When he said twice a week, my heart literally stopped.. Next week I'll be 36 weeks pregnant, which leaves me with just 4 more weeks until we meet our little baby. Omg Omg Omg! Seriously, how fast has time flown? I swear it was just a few months ago that we found out we were expecting. All I can think about is how I wish, and know my husband wishes, that he could be here for all these check ups, for that ultra sound. I tried to call him but his phone was off. Now that I think of it, I don't know how he would have reacted to my joy.. just knowing he couldn't be there for this moment. More so, after receiving a skype message from him wishing he were home to hold babybump and me. (WAH!)

I'm so excited, I could just scream! Instead I'm doing what I do best, crying (: 

I just can't believe I'm going to meet our baby so soon.

To not have her kicking away in my belly, but to actually hold her in my arms. 

Gosh, okay, I need to go before I cry all over my laptop and kill it. HAHA!

XO - Savannah

My Active Little Bump

 

(32weeks and 2 days)

These are the moments I love. Sitting around feeling baby moving around within me. I can't help but hold my belly, mentally envisioning a healthy little girl stretching her little arms, kicking her little legs. To know this is so sacred, the bond only a mother and her baby can feel, to know that my love can only grow stronger from here. It's also these moments, where I find myself wishing my husband were here. But soon enough, 6 weeks, he'll be home in Hawaii, ready to welcome our baby girl into the world. 

With Father's Day coming up, I really need to find the perfect gift for our Daddy To Be. 

I hope everyone is having a wonderful Monday(:

(Tuesday for my Japan loves) 

PS. Thank you to those who've visited my page. 

Please leave a comment, to let me know you stopped by!

 XO - Savannah

Count Your Blessings

Lately, I've been feeling a little "Crazy" -- feeling like I've finally cracked, transforming into a child-bearing monster. It's already been 5 days of emo, and that's 5 days too long. I've been pushing my husband away, believing this isn't his problem. He has his life in Okinawa, a life he should enjoy. But after a mini-breakdown this morning, I finally remembered to embrace all that I have. I believe that we never receive more than we are able to handle, and I haven't been acting on that. Throwing myself pity parties with every downfall, sinking deeper into my hole. But really, I have so many blessings. So many reasons to love life, so many reasons to be thankful for the life I live. Sadly I forgot about it all.

This entry is dedicated to focusing on the positive -- remembering that I have a million reasons to smile. So here's my list of the blessings I have in life.

1. My Husband - through the good, the bad, the ugly, he's never left my side. Though we are physically separated, I know he's always there for me. He is such a wonderful man who deserves all the love in the world, and I'm beyond blessed he finds my love enough. I've been feeling like a "burden" for him. Being hormonal, and wanting to call him all the time, just to cry. But now as I admit this, I realize that's unnecessary.. I've finally changed my focus. His next phonecall is going to be one hell of a MUSHY one. I love that man. Achhkk <3

2. Our Growing Bean - I've finally reached 8months, and that has gone by SOO FAST! -- I can't believe in about 8 weeks, we'll be meeting our baby girl. 

3. My Momma - Being almost 25, I wouldn't expect her to still keep me under her wing. She's my best friend. I enjoy our dinners, and weekend errand runs together.

4. Health - Gestational Diabetes isn't the end of the world and it definitely shouldn't be treated as such a curse. I'm thankful for this body being able to do all that it does.

5.  A Home - Though I never thought I'd live on my own, here I am, in a house to myself, paying my own bills, standing on my own. Don't get me wrong, I'm so excited for the day my husband and I can officially share a home, but for now, I'm happy to have independence.

(:

Wow, really reflecting on the good in life can put you in such a great mood.
Now to carry on with my day. Laundry calls.

XOXO - Savvy