A Letter To Naia

My sweet little Naia,

Tomorrow you're 1, one month old.

We've spent 4 weeks together, the best 4 weeks of my life. 

I can't believe how fast time has gone...

I can't believe how much you've changed.

I still can't believe I'm a mommy, your mommy. 

I'm so blessed.

I sit here thinking about August 11th. How daddy and I were getting a pedicure, with mommy questioning if those pains she felt were labor pains...and yes they were. I love that we didn't need induction... and I know it was meant to be that you've chosen the 11th. I know your Uncle Jesse is smiling down on us. 

I remember them placing you on my chest, yet I was still out of breath, unable to sink in the fact that my baby was here. As they took you away, I heard you cry, your first cry...I waited for them to check you, to bring you back to me. I heard a man telling you to open your eyes -- and baby, you didn't open your eyes until you were back in my arms, listening to my voice... my heart sank... you were finally here.

I never thought I could love someone more than your daddy, and then there was you. 

The ultimate gift of love. 

I still remember when we found out about you.

Hearing your little heartbeat, seeing a tiny you. 

Thank you for a month of joy.

I love every dirty diaper...it's proof that I'm keeping you healthy.

I love every little smile, giggle, yawn. 

Every little cry, I promise to continue to keep those eyes dry.

I love it when you hold my finger.

I love when you lean your little head upon my shoulder.

You may not talk yet, but I love our story time.

You are the greatest listener babe. 

I love you so much baby girl.

And I just love you more and more and more.

Happy 1 Month Baby Girl. 

Thank you for this love. 

So blessed to have you.

Beautifully Blessed

I may not be able to recognize a lie, only because I trust I wouldn't be lied to. 

I was hurt & confused. A lot of memories resurfaced...

My husband always warns me to keep my guard up..

I trust easily. I give too quickly. 

I truly believed I proved him wrong this time. 

But once again...stupidity got the best of me.

But now, I have no time to cry..

No energy for games,

No desire to try anymore.

I could wish all I want,

but really -- I couldn't wish for anything more.

I can't be hurt when I think about my life.

I'd never imagined being so blessed.

I have found a man, who no matter what negatives come our way, never gives up on us.

Someone who continues to sacrifice himself for our little family.  

A man who's happiness revolves around keeping me happy.

I can't change him. That's how he is...

All I can be is truly thankful for him, his love.

I love this man with all I am.

Then there's our beautiful baby girl.

So blessed to have such a good baby!

She's mellow. She's quiet.

She can fall asleep on her own.

She may not nap long during the day, 

but she'll nap 2-3hrs throughout the night.

 She loves a good story,

& her momma's imperfect singing. 

Love my little Naia.

Of course I'll cry,

get angry,

breakdown..

but with constant reminders of my wonderful life..

negativity stands no chance.

Have a blessed day.

XO -,Savvy

4 more weeks to go..

 

Once returning home from Okinawa, I started to grow NON-STOP!

I've been told to embrace my pregnancy and reveal it to the world. And honestly, I embrace every second of it... Though I know she meant to wear tight clothing, show off my bump, post it all over facebook. But I'm not that kind of girl. I'm actually SHY when it comes to my pregnancy, and actually, private in general. I'm definitely a girly girl who likes to feel pretty, but It's actually my husband loves attention and will announce everything to the world!

"How are you guys?" 

"Good. We're getting married" or

"We're pregnant" 

Haha. He's the voice I don't have (: Which is funny, because he was NEVER a talker.. we kind of switched rolls. I love it. 

I love every kick. I love the feeling of discipline in what I put into my body. Oh how I'm dying to eat an easy over egg, or medium rare steak -- and I'm just happy I can say NO, knowing it's best for our little baby.

I'm scheduled for an ultrasound tomorrow. I'm so excited to be able to see my little baby once more before she arrives! I was actually surprised that I didn't get to see her more. But this is crunch time! I'm so nervous, so excited. I can't wait for my husband to come home and enjoy these last few weeks of pregnancy with me. Well, enjoy or wish he were back in Japan, instead of dealing with my craziness. Haha! Overall, I felt I did a good job at being pregnant. I've always been independent, so I never truly found myself overly crazy, but I think that may have something to do with the fact that my husband has been away. With no work, and a lot of time at home, I truly have nothing major to stress me out. 

 I honestly don't know how many times I've expressed, "Time flies" .. but I just constantly hear myself repeating it in my mind. That's why it's so important to enjoy every second with love and happiness. It's so important. 

With that said, it's time to enjoy my Sunday with my mom. I missed her Friday night & all of yesterday. She's been busy with her class reunion. Weekends are always mommy moments, so I'm excited for today. (:

XO - Have a beautiful day all. - Savannah

Because Thursday Is Over..

ALOHA, Aloha Friday Bloghop!
Thank you for visiting my page! 

I had to jump on this bloghop, since I'm a little Hawaiian girl myself. 

Mahalo Nui <3

I'm embarrassed to have been MIA from blogging for 5 days now. Guess I've been busy being preggo and crafting. And here I am now, returning to vent. Oy! But before I get to the sob story.. let me tell you all about my wonderful Thursday! 

1. I was surprisingly woken up by my husband via skype(: That crazy man was going to bed at 0200 only to have to wake up early for work! I love little moments where he surprises me. 

2. As this baby bump has grown into a baby mountain, yes, it gets a lot more uncomfortable, but to walk into a building and see people smile, for the fact that you're happily pregnant just makes me melt even more..Call me Japanese, well, that I am, but I'm very subtle with my attire naturally.. Always wearing loose-fit clothes. So now that baby-bump is making herself known to the world, this added attention is overwhelming, but it feels good(:

3. My father was able to fix my forever-breaking trunk! It feels so good to have a trunk that's secure now for baby stroller. I seriously can't believe I'm 36 weeks pregnant today.. Gosh, Naia will be here in no time! Ahhhh...

4. A successful Safeway trip! I'm not really one to shop at safeway. I like to support our local markets, but with $0.97/lb Peaches, $0.60 Yoplait Yogurt, & $11.99 Tide Detergent, I HAD TO GO THERE! I was so happy to have saved so much money on things I love and need. The best part was the Tide though. Just knowing that my husband will be home in 2 weeks -- that's an extra load of laundry I never mind doing. 

5. Ended my errands with a nice sushi, cherries, watermelon, and crisp peach lunch. It was so refreshing to sit down and relax to some food. Sadly, it made my blood sugar peak a little high, but it was yummy. Hehe. 

  

Okay, and that was the good stuff.

Here's the vent.

Before going to bed, I was texting with a good friend about the baby shower. She was asking what type of things she and her girlfriend could do to help out. Honestly, this shower is so informal. I'm just so thankful for my mom, who planned the idea of getting together loved ones for such an exciting occasion! (: I seriously can't believe how fast this pregnancy has gone. I know I'm gonna miss it, but meeting baby will definitely be that much better. 

Anyway, it's 4:30am in Hawaii now, and about an hour ago, I woke up from a horrible dream! It was the day of my shower, I was working on the party favors, when my husband walked into the room to tell me he didn't want corn chowder or fish. So what did he do? He dumped all the food he wouldn't eat into the sink. I couldn't believe it! Instead of helping me prep for the shower, he went in the room to lay down. I was furious. I remember yelling at him, about how selfish he was being, and he didn't care. I even told him to get out of the house and not come to the shower. When I woke up, I was just so upset. Due to my pregnancy, I even cried. Don't you hate dreams like that?   Like usual, I called my husband. I always call him for "comfort" when I have a bad dream. I'm blessed to have him do just that.. He's great at comforting. 

So, there I was calling. He answered cheerfully. I told him my dream and he brushed me off quickly. Saying he was standing outside of Hula practice. Yes, it's my fault for expecting comfort.. I usually feel better after talking to him, but not tonight. I guess knowing how horrible that dream felt, and "needing" him to show me it was only a dream was what I was looking for.. but instead, as he stated, I ruined his night by making him look like a dumb-ass, standing outside in the parking lot on the phone? Really? Because people don't stand outside in parking lots on the phone, before stepping foot into a building. Huh. His bad mood shift startled me. I guess just not getting his way led him to be frustrated with my phonecall. Definitely not what I expected out of calling him, and it definitely doesn't help with the dream I had. 

Yes, it was only a dream, but how awful am I to say, that things like this have happened.. Not necessarily where he wastes perfectly good food. Just the fact that he is able to sleep through a day when his help would be appreciated. As my pregnancy is nearing to an end, my mind has been going crazy! Freaking out over things that haven't, and hopefully will not happen. I just need to remind myself to always keep positive, know whatever happens is for a reason, and that I'll never receive more than I can handle.

Thank you blogspot for letting me get that vent out of my system. 

XO - Savannah