Beautifully Blessed

I may not be able to recognize a lie, only because I trust I wouldn't be lied to. 

I was hurt & confused. A lot of memories resurfaced...

My husband always warns me to keep my guard up..

I trust easily. I give too quickly. 

I truly believed I proved him wrong this time. 

But once again...stupidity got the best of me.

But now, I have no time to cry..

No energy for games,

No desire to try anymore.

I could wish all I want,

but really -- I couldn't wish for anything more.

I can't be hurt when I think about my life.

I'd never imagined being so blessed.

I have found a man, who no matter what negatives come our way, never gives up on us.

Someone who continues to sacrifice himself for our little family.  

A man who's happiness revolves around keeping me happy.

I can't change him. That's how he is...

All I can be is truly thankful for him, his love.

I love this man with all I am.

Then there's our beautiful baby girl.

So blessed to have such a good baby!

She's mellow. She's quiet.

She can fall asleep on her own.

She may not nap long during the day, 

but she'll nap 2-3hrs throughout the night.

 She loves a good story,

& her momma's imperfect singing. 

Love my little Naia.

Of course I'll cry,

get angry,

breakdown..

but with constant reminders of my wonderful life..

negativity stands no chance.

Have a blessed day.

XO -,Savvy

 

Time flies. It truly does.

40 days ago, my husband flew back to Hawaii. 

20 days ago, our daughter was born.

Tomorrow, he flies back to Okinawa.

 Tonight we say goodbye... err scratch that, 

tonight we say, "see you soon"

 

We don't know when we three will be together again.

Do Naia and I wait in Hilo until he gets his next accompanied orders? 

Or do we fly to Okinawa, to be with him until we get those orders?

If it were just me, I'd be in Okinawa in a heartbeat.

But now with a little one, there's just so many things to think about....so much to consider.

 

Of course I want our family to be together, sooner than later. 

I'm just torn.

Okinawa is a 9hr flight. 

With a mandatory customs checkpoint in Japan. 

I'd definitely need someone to help me get there. 

But who would accompany us? 

Do I bring luggage? Or mail my things?

Will she be okay with just her first shot?

Will she be okay for the multiple plane rides?

Do I leave my wonderful doctor here, to have her check-ups all at the on-base hospital? 

Call this my postpartum thinking, but these are just a few of the things I think about.

The house we'd be staying in has a cat and a dog. Who we'd have to take care of while our friends are away. There's just too many things this crazy mind of mine thinks up. 

And then there's the heartbreak of it all.

Leaving my momma.

I really don't know how I would be able to have survived these first few weeks of motherhood without her. She's kept me company until my husband came back from work/gym.

She feeds me & does household cleaning that she considers "Nothing" -- but honestly, it helps me so much. 

The night I mentioned Okinawa to my momma, she was holding Naia. 

The minute I told her about Okinawa, Naia began to cry.

The minute my baby's crying began, I found myself in tears as well.

But these are just thoughts and options for now.

Whatever is meant to be, will be. 

I truly believe that.

6 more hours with us three together. 

I sit here at my laptop with my two babies sleeping.

I am blessed.

I am so in love with my family. 

XO - Savannah

Tuesday & Wednesday

Good evening everyone (:
Just returned home from dinner at my moms. I'm so thankful that she's able and willing to prepare dinner for me, even at age 24. It's so nice to have home cooked meals with people that I love. More so because I live alone. I'm also very thankful that her house is just a 5minute drive from mine.

Didn't size my engagement ring yet.. that's a ring snuggie! Haha

I remember one incident, where I was furious and hurt by my husband, for taking his wedding band off before he went out to a night club. Yes, they are just pretty objects, but I truly believe they symbolize commitment. I still glance at my rings, and just feel so proud to be his wife, so blessed to have such love. Yesterday, I took my wedding band to Zales for it's 6 month check up. Who knew rings needed a checkup?! I've decided to take my band off at home, just to save time and embarrassment, because I usually need to use soap to slip this puppy off. But yesterday, my goodness, I needed soap, ice cubes and prayers to get it off! I'm not sure if it's the summer heat expanding my skin, or possibly swelling from pregnancy.. but I could NOT get the ring off! My finger turned shades of purple. Gosh... it was so scary. I decided to ice my finger, hoping to have my skin tighten. I'm not sure if that truly helped, but finally, after a lot of tugging, twisting, and man power, I got the ring off. My finger was so sore. It was quite an experience. I haven't put it back on yet. It's something I've been debating over for quite some time now, just really thinking if I need to take it off anytime soon again. I look at my finger and it looks so incomplete. Ahh what the hey, ring will go back on tomorrow morning (: 

One thing I love about being pregnant, is seeing all the pregnant celebrities. I was always one to catch up with celebrity gossip, but I guess being preggo myself, I find it 10x more exciting to see celebrities who are expecting. 

When I stumbled upon this picture, I couldn't help but smile! For myself, I love to see a man excited to be a daddy. An actual "daddy." I've witnessed too many friends, acquaintances, going through pregnancy and parenting alone. So to see a man take charge and embrace pregnancy as a couple, my gosh... how sexy is that? I'm envious that they can enjoy pregnancy together, but my husband should be home in less than 4 weeks. (: I'm ready for him to help mama out! Haha.

I've set up baby's playpen/crib yesterday, and let me tell you how EXHAUSTING that was! My mom suggested I wait until my husband comes home...but seriously, I was too excited to place it in my room that I had to put it together myself (: I love how easy it is to set up and take down. It's nice and sturdy as well.. We didn't want to invest in a crib, especially when we're not sure if I'll be moving out of Hawaii or not. I really can't believe baby is almost here. Well, actually, I can. She feels so huge in my belly. Constantly moving and causing aches and pains everywhere. But hey, as long as she's healthy, I'll put up with it. 

TOP ROW : 2008, 2009 BOTTOM: 2010, 2011

Lastly, as I couldn't sleep last night, I found myself going through myspace (WOW!) and just looking back on little things from 2008. I really can't believe it's been 4 years since I've found love. And here we are today, growing up as individuals, growing stronger together as one. I'm so blessed to have his heart and just lucky to say I'm still so in love. He's been really busy at his shop lately, haven't talked to him for a couple of days, which just gets me anxious for our next skype date. I'm missing him and loving it! Gosh, I could go on and on with this mush.. But for now, my back is really sore. It's time to lay down! (:

Goodnight XOXO - Savannah

Daddy Crafting

 

It's been a while since I've worked on a project. Been brainstorming what kind of "Daddy To Be" gifts I could prep for my hubby.... Well, today my little light bulb went off & I've decided to make him a little slideshow. (: For majority of my pregnancy, we've been separated (aside from April-May which I've spent in Japan with him) -- so I've decided to use all my photos of baby bump and I -- and videos of her kicking around. We'd skype, he'd ask to see belly, but I thought this was a really cute way to fast forward it all, as if it's not going by too quickly already!! -- Being the sap I am, of course I found myself tearing as I previewed the video. I just can't believe in less than 2 months, we'll be meeting our baby girl. 

Time truly is precious. 

Enjoy every minute, every second. 

XO - Savannah 

 

First Comes Marriage, Then Stays Marriage

 

While scrolling through twitter, a daily thing, I've come across two posts by Keri Hilson and this topic has crossed my mind before.

She's right, now days, it seems as though marriage ends in divorce. 

I'm not saying divorce shouldn't happen at all.

But to see divorces happen within 3 months of marriage?

Why?

Was it the rush of things?

Was it lack of effort?

Or for example, in the tabloids, Mel Gibson's father just filed for divorce. His father is 98.

You really stop and wonder if he had a happy life. If he was in love? It really doesn't sound like it, if he's wanting a divorce at 98. :( :(

I believe everyone deserves to be happy.

From my view, I am with Keri. I've always thought to myself, "If I ever get married, I will only marry once, and I will not divorce." So here I am, married... and I still believe this..

5 months into our marriage, 4 years into our relationship, I still feel myself falling deeper in love with the same man. It's funny to have these tweets come around today... just because, as I did my morning ritual, providing wakeup calls for the hubby, he said to me, "I love you, Savannah." And, after hearing those words, my heart literally stopped (thankfully it continued to beat again, otherwise, well, I wouldn't be typing hehe) -I mean, "I love you" isn't something we are new to hearing.. But it's amazing to really feel a difference, just when your name is added into the mix. After hanging up with him, I just sat there, and really reflected on how lucky I am in love.

 

  

I don't know what the future holds, but I do have hope. I have confidence in our relationship, I have faith in our love. Before marriage, we've talked about our views on it. How we both believed in this "once in a lifetime commitment", how divorce just isn't an option. We've been through a lot, the ugly, the uglier, the down right hideous crap, and look at us today. I just know what I feel for this man, is nothing but love, and in my heart, he will be that man, old and grey, holding my hand in his rocking chair next to mine.

Finding yourself happily in love doesn't happen for everyone, though it should, so knowing I've been blessed with this experience in life, I NEVER want to give it up, or take it for granted.

I pray the thought of marriage can bring JOY to all again. 

I pray marriage can be sacred once more.

I pray marriage will last for all time (: 

I am a happy wife, I intend on being one for the rest of my life.
(MOVE ASIDE DR. SEUSS!) 

XO - SMOS