Tuesday & Wednesday

Good evening everyone (:
Just returned home from dinner at my moms. I'm so thankful that she's able and willing to prepare dinner for me, even at age 24. It's so nice to have home cooked meals with people that I love. More so because I live alone. I'm also very thankful that her house is just a 5minute drive from mine.

Didn't size my engagement ring yet.. that's a ring snuggie! Haha

I remember one incident, where I was furious and hurt by my husband, for taking his wedding band off before he went out to a night club. Yes, they are just pretty objects, but I truly believe they symbolize commitment. I still glance at my rings, and just feel so proud to be his wife, so blessed to have such love. Yesterday, I took my wedding band to Zales for it's 6 month check up. Who knew rings needed a checkup?! I've decided to take my band off at home, just to save time and embarrassment, because I usually need to use soap to slip this puppy off. But yesterday, my goodness, I needed soap, ice cubes and prayers to get it off! I'm not sure if it's the summer heat expanding my skin, or possibly swelling from pregnancy.. but I could NOT get the ring off! My finger turned shades of purple. Gosh... it was so scary. I decided to ice my finger, hoping to have my skin tighten. I'm not sure if that truly helped, but finally, after a lot of tugging, twisting, and man power, I got the ring off. My finger was so sore. It was quite an experience. I haven't put it back on yet. It's something I've been debating over for quite some time now, just really thinking if I need to take it off anytime soon again. I look at my finger and it looks so incomplete. Ahh what the hey, ring will go back on tomorrow morning (: 

One thing I love about being pregnant, is seeing all the pregnant celebrities. I was always one to catch up with celebrity gossip, but I guess being preggo myself, I find it 10x more exciting to see celebrities who are expecting. 

When I stumbled upon this picture, I couldn't help but smile! For myself, I love to see a man excited to be a daddy. An actual "daddy." I've witnessed too many friends, acquaintances, going through pregnancy and parenting alone. So to see a man take charge and embrace pregnancy as a couple, my gosh... how sexy is that? I'm envious that they can enjoy pregnancy together, but my husband should be home in less than 4 weeks. (: I'm ready for him to help mama out! Haha.

I've set up baby's playpen/crib yesterday, and let me tell you how EXHAUSTING that was! My mom suggested I wait until my husband comes home...but seriously, I was too excited to place it in my room that I had to put it together myself (: I love how easy it is to set up and take down. It's nice and sturdy as well.. We didn't want to invest in a crib, especially when we're not sure if I'll be moving out of Hawaii or not. I really can't believe baby is almost here. Well, actually, I can. She feels so huge in my belly. Constantly moving and causing aches and pains everywhere. But hey, as long as she's healthy, I'll put up with it. 

TOP ROW : 2008, 2009 BOTTOM: 2010, 2011

Lastly, as I couldn't sleep last night, I found myself going through myspace (WOW!) and just looking back on little things from 2008. I really can't believe it's been 4 years since I've found love. And here we are today, growing up as individuals, growing stronger together as one. I'm so blessed to have his heart and just lucky to say I'm still so in love. He's been really busy at his shop lately, haven't talked to him for a couple of days, which just gets me anxious for our next skype date. I'm missing him and loving it! Gosh, I could go on and on with this mush.. But for now, my back is really sore. It's time to lay down! (:

Goodnight XOXO - Savannah

Recaps

My have I neglected my blogger.
Just been dealing with hormonal issues.
But a little recap on what's been going on in the life of SMOS.

1. Mini fights with the hubby. Distance is really hard, been dealing with it for 3 years now, and sometimes, it just makes me really vulnerable. I suppose with a little help from my pregnancy, I found myself lost in negative thoughts. I pulled away from him, when really I should have been clinging on tighter. I had doubts of our future, and I really chose to hold my tongue for a few days, just knowing whatever was bothering me would really rub him the wrong way. But in actuality, I had to voice my concerns. Why? Because I love him so damn much. We talked it out. He said his piece, I've said mine. Now, that book has been closed. I mean, nothing even really happened yet. I'm just worrying based on issues that happened between my parents. I love my husband to death. I'm so anxious for him to come home. So anxious for our baby's arrival. Ahhh.. time really does fly by.

2. On top of distance. I've been really trying to brainstorm cute ideas on keeping my husband connected with baby and I. Yes, he'll be home for her birth, and thankfully he'll receive recruiter's assistance to stay an extra 30 days. But then, he'll head back to Japan and it'll be back to skype for us, until orders are received. I'm so happy that he enjoyed my Daddy's Day gift (slideshow with photos of my belly growing week by week) -- Now I have to think of a whole new bunch of ways to keep us all connected. It's going to be fun! I can't wait.

3. Baby Shower Planning (: -- Okay, I know baby showers are supposed to be a surprise for the expecting mommies right? Though it was my mother's idea, I am actually in the process of brainstorming party favors, food, well, EVERYTHING! Hahaha. I've recently told one of my good friends about my pregnancy, and her excitement just made me cry. I can only imagine how wonderful this shower/party will be. Like my wedding, I was surrounded by so many people I love. Those same people will be at our shower. Richie will be home. It will be wonderful!

4. House Cleaning - This is seriously a never ending process. I'm not sure if I'm a lazy preggo, but I seriously have NO energy to do anything. I'll clean for an hour then find myself sleepy. I compare myself with this woman I follow on instagram, who is about ready to POP, but she has been NON-STOP decorating her new house, lawn-mowing, just an on the go woman! Worst, she posted photos of her excessively swollen feet! I don't know where her energy comes from. I seriously need some of that!

Alright, that's about all I have for now.
XO - Savannah (: 

First Comes Marriage, Then Stays Marriage

 

While scrolling through twitter, a daily thing, I've come across two posts by Keri Hilson and this topic has crossed my mind before.

She's right, now days, it seems as though marriage ends in divorce. 

I'm not saying divorce shouldn't happen at all.

But to see divorces happen within 3 months of marriage?

Why?

Was it the rush of things?

Was it lack of effort?

Or for example, in the tabloids, Mel Gibson's father just filed for divorce. His father is 98.

You really stop and wonder if he had a happy life. If he was in love? It really doesn't sound like it, if he's wanting a divorce at 98. :( :(

I believe everyone deserves to be happy.

From my view, I am with Keri. I've always thought to myself, "If I ever get married, I will only marry once, and I will not divorce." So here I am, married... and I still believe this..

5 months into our marriage, 4 years into our relationship, I still feel myself falling deeper in love with the same man. It's funny to have these tweets come around today... just because, as I did my morning ritual, providing wakeup calls for the hubby, he said to me, "I love you, Savannah." And, after hearing those words, my heart literally stopped (thankfully it continued to beat again, otherwise, well, I wouldn't be typing hehe) -I mean, "I love you" isn't something we are new to hearing.. But it's amazing to really feel a difference, just when your name is added into the mix. After hanging up with him, I just sat there, and really reflected on how lucky I am in love.

 

  

I don't know what the future holds, but I do have hope. I have confidence in our relationship, I have faith in our love. Before marriage, we've talked about our views on it. How we both believed in this "once in a lifetime commitment", how divorce just isn't an option. We've been through a lot, the ugly, the uglier, the down right hideous crap, and look at us today. I just know what I feel for this man, is nothing but love, and in my heart, he will be that man, old and grey, holding my hand in his rocking chair next to mine.

Finding yourself happily in love doesn't happen for everyone, though it should, so knowing I've been blessed with this experience in life, I NEVER want to give it up, or take it for granted.

I pray the thought of marriage can bring JOY to all again. 

I pray marriage can be sacred once more.

I pray marriage will last for all time (: 

I am a happy wife, I intend on being one for the rest of my life.
(MOVE ASIDE DR. SEUSS!) 

XO - SMOS